Fear of being watched

who you think you are

the saint..pooh

then why are you so afraid?

of being under the lime light

everyone does that

so I try to convince myself

but in vain

the constant fear of being under watch

nags me and eggs me...

what the hell

Should have been in some place 

with more freedom

of expression without hypocrisy

Or am I the one 

Who thinks these nonsense

Am I the one hallucinating

I wonder what

Is wrong with me

Is it untimeliness

or being in the wrong place

in the wrong time

Or is it my shyness

which hinders me

dont know what will happen

the next day 

dont know whether I can wait

until the time comes

tranquility is what 

I need now most

cant let one thing 

control my whole life

Malena

when she screamed
I too screamed
when she cried I too cried...
she cried in anguish..

she cried " let me be "
but they would not.

they beat her up
A bitch in the ditch... they said
they made her pay for
crimes she did not commit

they cut her hair
hoping their men would dislike her
they kicked her ass
they humiliated her
beyond u and I can possibly bear..

If I had been her
I will definitely escape...
you would find me as a lunatic
or as a dead man rotting
in a corner of my house...

But she is not me
She is a Goddess
She silently took the beating
She silently took the insulting...

How resilient is she
I can't comprehend how she can bear all that suffering
May be she had a "thing" in a deep corner of her heart
which they could not touch.

I made a resolution
to see something beyond beauty
beyond sexy flesh
in a woman..

To penetrate and see
realizing
that beyond that glowing skin
she has a soul
which pains and screams
against injustice and discrimination
Just like mine...

Inspired by the film " Malena"

බුද්ධිය ????

බල්ලාට ඇති ඉව අපට තිබේද
ඌට ඇසෙන හඩ අපට ඇසේද
උකුස්සාට පෙනෙන දුර අපට පෙනේද
මිනිසුනි
එසේ නම් ඇයි සිතන්නේ
අප සියල්ල දන්නවුන් කියා
නො එසේ නම්
දැනගැනීමට සුදුස්සන් කියා
බල්ලාට දැනෙන ඉව සීමාසහිත වේද
ඌට ඇසෙන හඩ සීමාසහිත වේද
උකුස්සාට පෙනෙන දුර සීමාසහිත වේද

එසේම අප බුද්ධියද සීමාසහිත වේ
කෙතරම් අනුවණ කමක්ද
අපට ගෝචර නොවන දෑ
මේ සක්වළ අනන්තය
විශ්ව විෂය අචින්ත්‍යය
පිලිගනු
සියල්ල විද්‍යාත්මක නොවන බැව්
සමහර මිත්‍යාවන්
විද්‍යාත්මක බැව්
සත්‍ය සැම විටම
අනාවරණය නොවන බැව්........        
පෙනෙන දෑට සාපේක්ෂව නොපෙනෙන දෑ මහත්ය.....            

HARD TIMES

frustration building up
burning my insides
feels numb
feels cold hatred
towards them 
who steer my life


aimless and pointless
lifeless life
you are killing me
slowly
but surely


who is responsible
heart says they are
but my head 
says no
you are

life

life is but a flowing river,
sometimes tranquil ,
sometimes harsh
like a river
has a humble beginning
grows with distance
always a paradox
the depth suggested by calmness
but to be of some use
it must be controlled
that is why we build up
dams
so they say
but is it true
may be
may be it is true.